Let’s Be Honest
Good Saturday morning everyone! There is a lot going on in this post!
BSI Challenge ends today!
Your chances of winning are VERY good since I’ve only had one entry so far lol! :)
Maybe cherries was too difficult of an ingredient to choose?
Yesterday was yet another busy day at work. My poor class, even on a Friday afternoon we’ve had to work riiiight until the last minute before the bell rings. They’ve been troopers trying to get ready for our testing next week. I can’t wait until next Friday afternoon when it is all over. I swear they are going to get constant P.E lessons for the following week haha! I’ll get to wear my track suits to work every day.
Last night we went to Steve’s Dad’s to try to book up some cottages for this summer. A bunch of us will be going up to Tobermory (where we got engaged!) after the wedding and we need a few cottages… they are beautiful up there and I can’t wait to spend some time up north after we get married. We are not going on our honeymoon right away. We will either wait until October (when I have a week off work) or Christmas. We’re still trying to iron out the details!
We woke up a bit later this morning after being out late last night. We did some cleaning & yard work and before we knew it it was time for lunch! I made a wrap with veggies, hummus and avocado.
It was so yummy! On the side I had a fruit salad with grapes, strawberries, a satsuma and kiwi (yes, sometimes I eat the skin on kiwi when I am too lazy to cut it off!- today I felt ambitious though :) )
I topped the fruit salad with some soy yogurt and then topped the yogurt with some cinnamon and a dollop of natural peanut butter.
I am so thankful that it is the weekend. I have to be honest here and say that it wasn’t a very fabulous week. I’m not going to try to pretend everything was sunshine and rainbows because I definitely had my days of stress and sadness this week. I try not to dwell on things but i’m trying to show that I am a real person who deals with things just like anyone else, you know?
We had some great conversation yesterday regarding calorie counting and taking breaks from exercise.
Lara asked me yesterday: Did you ever count while losing the weight?
In one word: yes.
I did count calories for many years and I was obsessive over it for a long period of time.
Back in 2007 though, when I started losing weight “the healthy way” I did count calories for a little while until I figured out what worked for me. I joined Spark People and used this for a while to enter in the values. I own a food scale and from time to time I will use it so that I can measure out portion sizes. Before Christmas last year, I did find that weighing my food became obsessive yet again and I had to stop. I mean, I was measuring the cucumber and tomato that went on my salad! I had to say enough is enough and so far in 2009 I have not counted calories at all for dieting purposes. I have toyed with the idea (to get wedding – ready) but I really don’t think it’s a good road for me to jump on given my history.
In a nutshell I do think it’s a good idea to count calories if you are trying to lose weight until you figure out what portion sizes look like. Once you find out what works for you then my advice is to stop and really try listening to your body. If you have a history of having an unhealthy relationship with food/dieting and the like then my advice is to stay away from counting calories. Listening to our hunger cues can be so difficult sometimes, can’t it? But eventually I think it does get easier and easier. Eat healthy foods… hey I won’t lie, eating low calorie foods allows you to eat meals with more volume! Eat a variety of foods: this is something I’ve been trying to do lately.
I suppose I sort of went off on one there, but I hope I answered the question!
This is where I get even more honest.
As I said a few paragraphs up this week hasn’t been easy. I’ve spoken to Ange about it already through email and she’s shown me (yet again) that I can rely on her friendship to help me through it.
Stress often leads people to overeat and shall I dare say the word: binge.
It happens to me too.
I have been having a lot of unwanted stress at work and it has made me turn to food in a negative way. I’m sure many readers out there have dealt with turning to their own comfort foods one time or another. I have found that after work this week I have came home and have just felt anxious and vulnerable to the food in my house. I have just wanted to release the stress by eating & trying to make myself feel better.
Well, really – it has made me feel worse.
I need to find ways to channel my stress in different directions. Exercise is one of them. I am 110% committing myself to making sure that I do some form of exercise after work so that it will help me unwind from the day. It’s funny, you know.. that I feel the overeating monster within me during the week. Yet today, Saturday, I feel nothing of the sort. I feel relaxed and calm and i’m not even thinking about the food in my kitchen or at the shop around the corner.
I think there’s a connection here?
Often times the feelings that are connected to this are what worry me most. I think when people think of the word “overeat” or “binge” they picture someone in their mind shoveling food in their mouth at rapid speeds or sitting down to a table full of prepared food. Sure, it happens this way with a lot of people. For me, however, it’s the anxiety within myself and the reason/feelings behind the act of eating. My heart beats fast, my palms sweat a bit, I feel nervous. So I prepare a piece of toast with peanut butter & banana and I eat it. I’m not hungry, but I eat it anyway.
I hope this post doesn’t make me sound like I’ve gone off the deep end. What I do hope is that it shows you that you are not alone. It happens to me too.
For those of you who this has never happened to before. You are lucky! You are part of a portion of the population who doesn’t have issues with food, body image and the like. I think that’s great!!!
I am thankful that this doesn’t happen a lot to me. As i’ve said before I had a period in my life where I dealt with restricting, overeating, over exercising etc and I would never ever want to go back to that time. I consider myself lucky in my life right now because I do have a handle on things… but once in a while, as i’ve seen this past week past struggles can creep up into your life when you least expect it.
I really hope that any readers will open up, if you want… I know I definitely feel vulnerable posting this as I know my family & friends read this blog.. but there you have it.
I hope you are enjoying your Saturday! I’m about to go work out!
It’s pizza night in our house tonight… and maybe a little Britain’s Got Talent!!
Check out this video from one of the group dancing auditions!
Their audition starts around minute 2:20 if you want to fast forward!